I just re-found this blog

How hilarious is this? I just found this little bloggy poo after 2 years? Good God. How do people keep these things going? ANYWAYS. Just thought I’d post a little howdy doo before I go eat some tomatos, basil and balsamic vinegar. Since my last post many a things have happened.

1)      Married! To Matt smarty pants- it was in dallas and it was the best thing to happen to a lot of people.
2)      Parents business closed and got absorbed like a cell getting nutrients by another company, I worked for that company
3)      That company laid me off because they didn’t have these monies.
4)      Now I don’t have these monies.  But Moto was bought by Google so Matt’s the bread winner in this family.
5)      Summer is the best. Been on like a million trips around the US.
6)      Been mostly updating twitter, facebook and now google +.  Now I just need to link all these things together and be REALLY annoying.
7)      Also been busy doing side projects for family and friends, illustrating books, making logos, websites etc.
8)      Found this old blog after Emily Fehren said she was reading her old Xanga. Because that still exists. Who knew.

a world of time and space

It’s been forever but just to be clear, still live in Chicago, still working for parents, changed apartments to something much bigger and way more grown up but also older and therefore colder? Correlation? I hope not. Anyways, I can feel myself getting sicker and it makes me so mad. My throat is the battleground this time. I sound like a chain smoker right about now, and it probably won’t get better until it gets worse.

Tonight we are going to see Michael Showalter and Michael Ian Black which is exciting and really awesome, but I might need a tea or coffee to keep me there. And it’s at the Metro, which is way bizarre to me. For a comedy show? There better be chairs.

Anyways. I gotta shower or do some work but either way do NOT need be on here. You can count of my sporadic updates never and don’t expect to hear about much else.

you better believe it!

Good grief. Who’s got time to write a fucking blog? Not me. although I do have as much time as ever on my hands. I find myself drawn to other fascinating things like working out, writing scripts for concert ticket competitions, watching movies on tv and from netflix, sending way too many emails to my friends and father/boss and general making and eating too many desserts. It’s a rough life.

Things that are coming up:
Going to coloraqdo with my mom for business
Valentine’s day! Which means I get to go to a hockey game! Hoorah.
Going to Arizona also for business (that’s not until march)
Being cool… all the time.
Winter ending (this will never fucking happen!)

All in all I will say this. Things are good and fine. The only thing that really sucks right now is the weather. It’s so cold. All the time. I’m so pasty. But this weekend it’s supposed to be like 40 degrees and a little rainy. So maybe all this nasty dirty ice will be washed and melt.

and what a day!

Yay! Finally! Thank God! Hooray!
All these things can be said during today. American paused and watched as something kind of absolutely amazing happened. More emphasis, more meaning, more joy has been placed on today’s events than I’ve seen in a very long time. It’s not really about the one guy up there, but the whole nation believing in something bigger. What is this bigger thing that has overcome almost everybody? I have no idea. It’s a lot of things I guess.

Aretha Franklin’s hat is kind of awesome also. Her singing definitely brought some mist to my eyes.

Also the classical music superstars coming together, was amazing.

It was so easy. Just like that. Hail to Chief. Boop.

Good speech. Pretty convincing.

I like the old man prayer.

So I had to go work out before noon because they close at noon and then open at 3. So I didn’t want to wait that long. So I went but I waited too long and went during the inauguration. But I recorded it on CNN and NBC. Amazing. So there you go. History.

It's all great, good stuff.

over a tuesday

Hearing snoring even while I am awake and awake for good annoys the shit out of me.

I already went and worked out, felt good. I’ve decided I’m only going to work out in the morning. It’s the best time. you feel good for the rest of the day, it’s less busy there and the lady that works there during the morning is super nice.

Now I’m going to work on some slicks for SCA Walls. And I’ll be writing whenever things pop into my head over the course of the day.

Well I was sitting at our table and working on my laptop and stuff and of course trying to distract myself I looked to the bookshelf and how and behold a glorious set of my journals. Starting roughly freshman year of college. Which was like half full!!! It’s so funny reading things about meeting Sara and Emily and thinking about boys and stuff. And then another journal was completely full of travels, having each day and what we did. It’s great. And of course through out all of these spirals there are phone numbers to remember, passwords, doodles, testing pens and markers. It’s great. And I wrote an update in the one that contained freshman year. I just felt like I had to complete the story a little bit. Even though I realize now I didn’t mention that I did graduate and it was in fine and applied art’s art history and it was in 4 years. Well I’m announcing that to the world now so there you go. I worried a lot in those journals, more than I remember. But maybe because I didn’t worry to anybody else?

Now I have Matt, who gets the unfiltered me.

Man, I want some chocolate. Maybe just a granola bar? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm (yes I ate a granola bar)

Now it’s time to shower. Tommy James and the Shonells make a great “best of”. “Run, Run, Baby, Run” needs to be covered by Jens Lekmen.

seriously, japan?

I’ll be honest. I have not being keeping up my side of the bargain with this blog here. I mean you, valued reader, I know check every moment you can to see if I have any updates. But you come here and there’s nothing…. For a month. Pathetic really. But let’s not be coy here, I’m in love with you, dear reader, just you. Don't give up on me now.

So the month of December literally flew by. It was my birthday and then before I knew it, it was New Years. But before that was Christmas. I went down to Texas for it and had a great time. Besides seeing family and some extended family, the best parts were the following: fireworks, sunsets, a mini bike. Going down there was so nice. The weather was warmer and the food is always good. We had a plethora of tamales and smokehouse turkey. My dad’s theater room is ridiculous. And really I can’t describe it anymore than that…. You’d just have to see it.

But anyways. Came back to Chicago and it was new years eve! Which was both fun and irksome. And it happened in that sequence. Just fun drunk turned into shit show drunk, but I still think it was a lot of fun. But the next day my parents visited! Which was really nice. I hadn’t even seen our apartment yet. They thought it was cute. We also spent about 2 hours trying to get some Gino’s Pizza. But it was worth it. They also saw that we didn’t have any table and chairs so we went to Target and they bought us a little dinette set, which is much appreciated. Then while my mom and I put it together matt and my father both fell asleep. Geesh.

I have one book recommendation: My Custom Van by Michael Ian Black. If you read just the chapter titles and you don’t laugh then don’t talk to me.

Right now on the tv is Godzilla 2000, a Japanese film that is dubbed over and probably the greatest thing I’ve seen so far on tv. Not only does Godzilla have the same sound effect and look that it’s had through out the years, but the people of Japan STILL don’t know how to deal with Godzilla? I mean it took Americans only one try and Matthew Broderick took care of it. Japan get your shit together.

I have a lot to say and you're going to read it.

So it’s been a while. You COULD blame me but then I’d punch you in the gut. P.S. this is a long one.

So much has happened like the following: traveling across the world and realizing that I HATE flying I hate being in an airplane for more than 4 hours. If I am in a plane for over 4 hours my body starts to attack itself and my innards begin to implode. It’s like this weird gassy, bloating feeling where you don’t want to do anything except lay down horizontally but you can’t because you’re in fucking coach. Needless to say I have only ever flown better than coach once in my life. Business class convinced me that I should make money so I can always be in business class. Oh well.

But yes okay we went to Italy. And by we I mean me, matt, my brother, my mom and dad. So a family vacation, even though we are all over the age of 23. First we were in Rome, which was a delight. That city has way too many things to see so we had this tour by Eden Walks, I highly recommend it. All their guides are native speakers of English, which was greatly appreciated. After Rome and it’s many, many marvelous things. We went to stay in Tuscany in this freezing but absolutely adorable farmhouse that was apart of a greater hotel/resort sort of complex. From the farmhouse we were able to bus it to Florence, which as always just like POW, BAM! It’s a Batman fight sequence, only you are the bad guy and art is the caped crusader. Matt, my mom and I even climbed the Duomo, to the top, which I think matt best described at the “worst thing I have ever done in my life, but pretty awesome.” Then the next day we went to Pisa, to that outrageous leaning tower. And we got to climb up that too. It was very odd though…. climbing stairs in a building that is leaning. There are some parts of the stairs that were really easy to climb and then it get really, really hard. But the whole family made it to the top for some great views and good pictures. Then after all that we went back to Rome to catch a plane all together back to NYC to then connect to flights to our homes. But sometime between paying for water bottles and these things called pocket coffees, I managed to lose my wallet. Or someone stole it. But they didn’t know that all I had in there was 5 USD and 2 euros, two bank cards that they couldn’t possibly use, and a drivers license that would means nothing to them. Fucking idiots. More probable is that I left it on the counter or it dropped out of my pocket. But besides the wallet thing on the VERY last day, it was a great trip. Traveling with my family is rough at times but when everybody is in awe of a Michelangelo or watching fire we started in the kitchen the rough parts aren’t that important. We were there for a week and like I said it was great. But you know what the best part of vacation? Getting home. Being able to hear, read and understand English (and it’s everywhere!). Buy a hot dog. Cover food with cheese. Take public transportation and knowing what the fuck you’re doing. These are the things that life is worth living for.

We flew back on Thanksgiving. One of the best made up American holidays. It doesn’t take too much to celebrate it and I feel like other countries really should pick this one up if they haven’t already. Here are the steps: 1) eat food, a lot of it. Mostly just comfort foods, things with a lot of starch and fat, and that magical chemical that makes you sleepy. 2) Be around people that you love and hate. 3) have a professional sporting event on. 4) make way too much of step 1.

Even though I missed thanksgiving this year I still had a miniature one with Matt and Jami and Sarah. It was really cute and I really enjoyed it.

Then it was my birthday on December 2nd. It really wasn’t a big deal, which was nice. I mean I didn’t really have any plans to do anything. Emily came into town and we perused the downtown Christmas decorations. It was cold but not too bad and just darling. There was one tree in front of the Hancock building that I wanted to steal because it was so beautiful, it was how every Christmas tree should be, so saturated with lights that you forget it once was a living thing. Then later for dinner, we all went to Kuma’s Corner. It was a pretty alright night. Matt got me the box set of “home movies” which I love. My parents got me 3 things. My mom got me this cute trench coat that is from Michael Kors, tre chic. She also got me a child’s video game called “Little Pet Shop,” which she got for me because when I was younger I was an avid fan of the toy line. Recently they revamped it and it’s pretty different now, all the eyes are big and doe-y, all their heads are grossly out of proportion. You know the style was “girl” toys have taken these days (which really makes no sense to me, I mean I know Barbie is classically very out of proportion but this is getting ridiculous). And my dad got me a monopod. “a monopod?” you ask. Yes a monopod. Not quite a tripod and not quite a cane but you put your camera on it for some stabilization though not quite enough to completely remove some amount of movement. If I can’t use it for it’s real purpose I can still really beat down someone with it, so that’s comforting.

Other comforting thoughts, I already got my new debit cards and my new drivers license and I ordered my new speedy cta Chicago card. All I really have to replace now is my library card, which is going to cost ONE dollar. I guess I can live with that. Also I ordered winter boots from some brand up in Canada. One of the huge selling points is that the boots were “salt and calcium resilient” and they have a zipper up the side. It snowed here in Chicago. Just like 2 inches but it was lovely and not too evil. Matt and I bought our first Christmas tree together. And I decorated it the best I could and I think it’s the cutest thing to ever be put on our living room floor (in your face, duck rug). My engagement ring is done and I can go pick it up from the post office today. I’m very excited to have it on my finger. And it’s going to be all shiny and beautiful. Pictures of course will be on Facebook.

Oh! Last Friday I got to see Stella live at the Vic Theater. They were so good and it made me so happy to see them. My favorite part is when they crack up over each other’s goofs. Oh Michael, Michael and David! Least favorite part of that night, record breaking lows, like 8 degrees Fahrenheit- are you kidding? And I’m afraid it’s only going to get worse.

CHOCOLATE - ACK!

Kevin Bacon’s best work? Tremors. Duh. Actually besides Footloose I don’t think I can name another Kevin Bacon movie. That’s probably for the better.
Anyways! I’m pretty stoked about Rome, though I feel like I’m getting anxious and I hate that feeling. Maybe it’s because we’re leaving on a Wednesday. Maybe it’s because it’s still Monday!!! Ugh!

Anyways. This weekend was a pretty fun. Friday we drank and went over to a friend’s apartment where we played flippy cup! Which I haven’t played in maybe a year. It was great, still had the touch too. The guys at this apartment who I had never met before thought that me and Sarah were “ringers”. Haha. The rest of the night was ridiculous- went to a bar and it gets a little fuzzy from there. but made it home and slept til 2. Gross. The next night it was a birthday gathering at a bar. Which was attended by a ton of people that I only associate with Urbana house parties. Some of them were delightful others I wanted to punch in the face. Some of those guys just don’t realize that no body actually likes them. And they’re never really invited to anything they just show up, god, they suck. But the night was still very pleasant and we even got a ride home!

So what else? I don’t know- need to do laundry. I bought a suitcase that is pretty and new. And we need to try to finish the food in the fridge… ugh see? Anxious! I hate it. Maybe it’s the coffee. I’m gonna watch True Blood now… this show is so stupid, why do I keep watching it?

to do's

Hey ho!
So What’s up? Not too much I guess.
I’ve been working plenty on SCA Walls stuff, which is good. I enjoy that there is a task list to work on. Even though a lot of it is pretty tedious, i.e. editing photos to all look the same, editing photos for the website, creating pdf’s. But by far the most rewarding and challenging work was on the brochure. A 4 page leave behind that design wise needed to feel like a Herman Miller publication. So that means a lot of white space and a sense of unbalanced symmetry. I hope they need more stuff like that in the future it was fun to make. I mean I’ve got it a way that I’m okay with it, though honestly I could probably mess with it forever.

I leave in a week for Rome. A WEEK! Today I think I’m going to write out everything I should bring. So I don’t forget anything. Also I need to check the weather. All the guidebooks say not to travel to Rome in November because it rains the most during this month. But oh well. Maybe it won’t be so rainy and maybe the crowds will be small because all the guidebooks told people not to be there! Oh to see the Sistine Chapel with out 2000 other people! I’ve been reading guidebooks. And also a while ago my mom bought and had shipped to me a historical fiction book called “Roma”. It’s a story from sort of prehistory to I think the times of Jesus. I haven’t finished it; it’s huge. But I’m going to finish it before we leave, I swear! And actually I would totally read it all day but I do need to do SOME work. But what I have read I enjoyed. The story follows an amulet that is a gold penis with wings that follows its heritage. Ridiculous. I mean I’m sure such charms existed but the author couldn’t find something else to have wings? Oh well.

Matt bought an iPod touch. It is pretty ding dang spiffy, my brother just bought one too. So they can have fun with those during our plane rides. I hope I can sleep on the plane some. Heck it’s 8:30 am and I feel like I could sleep for another 4 hours. Our plane leaves at like 5 pm and gets into Rome at 7 am… or something like that. Whew. Just the thought makes me tired.

After 5 pm I have to watch for the UPS man with a package that contains a new winter jacket. Yay! Now if only the weather would make up it’s mind.

Today seems monotonous but I am extremely thankful.

oh brother

There is a lot to talk about.

I went to Seattle and had a sort of crash course in business sales. It was very interesting and I was surprised how much gossip is involved. I mostly took pictures of walls. It was fine. I got to wear business clothes. And I got to spend time with my dad! After Seattle I flew back to Chicago and Casey Best was in town! Yay! And Halloween happened. I was this girl named Ashley Todd and she was the girl who faked being attacked by some Obama supporter. We went to a show with King Kahn and the BBQ show. Which was great even though I didn’t know any of the songs. I don’t know when we did Saturday. But it was a great weekend.  

Then Tuesday Barack Obama was elected the next president of the united states. Pretty goddamn exciting. Matt had gotten tickets to the celebration in Grant Park. So we went and it was awe inspiring because of the amount of people and just everything was nice. And then after the screaming and the clapping and listening to Barack it was time to go. Getting out of the park took forever and while we were barely moving to get out of there Matt said that he loved me very much and I said the same back. Then he said that he didn’t want to make a scene because of all the people but “I want you to have this” and in his hand was an engagement ring. I was SOO surprised with matt’s proposal that all I could say was “what?” “what is this?” “what are you doing?” then he said you will marry me right? and I said YES! Of course. And he gave me this ring from his great grand mother, from Philadelphia. It’s beautiful but a little too small for my fat fingers. Hehe but Stef’s dad, is gonna take of everything and it’s going to be beautiful. I’m excited to have it back to put on my hand. Sigh. It was amazing. Some great U.S. history and some personal history. Something to tell the grandkids. Hehe.

Then I flew to Dallas on Thursday and flew back on Friday. My parents wanted me there for talking to the new employees, who are sales people. And talk about marketing literature and the new website. It was a great to see dallas and my parents and my brother, even if it was just for one night. I also felt like I had a real job for a while, so cool.  

Then last night, Friday, Jami and Sarah came over and we drank and went out and it was fun. Today, Saturday, matt and I went all the way up to some suburb for shopping fun time. it was silly. And we ended up just ordering what we wanted from online. Oh well. 

So that’s the catch up. The past week has been NUTS! Agree? Yes.

And leaving for Rome in like a week and a half.  Cool.

total biz cas

So I’m leaving for Seattle tomorrow! And I already packed most everything to make sure I’m within the limit for carry-on’s and all my ouces and whatever. Traveling is pretty tricky these days. But I’m excited nonetheless. I’ll be taking pictures and being charming and looking great in my biz cas.

It’s going to be a busy week. Tomorrow I leave and I come back Thursday which is also the day that a friend, Casey is coming into Chicago. So I can’t wait to see him and spend some time with some old friends! But of course because it’s Casey, he’s coming in Thursday afternoon and leaving Saturday at 4 am. What? I know. And Friday is Halloween and I don’t even have a costume idea yet! Who knows what I’ll end up “being”. Although I’ve seen some pretty crazy/awesome ones online at instructables.com and mental_floss. Both website blow my mind constantly, so enjoy.

I’ve been thinking about getting a cat… I don’t want to assume anything but I think Matt thinks it’s a decent idea too. And my mom was like “your apt is too small” and I said “I’ll be the judge of that!” and I think there are plenty of apt. cats around Chicago. I know in my building there is one apt that has 2 cats! And I just want a little bitty one. and I think I have good ideas on how to hide litter boxes and I’ll of course buy plenty of lint rollers and I’m gonna brush it so there’s not a bunch of hair everywhere. I’m gonna be the best pet owner ever. Hehe I’m a child.

It snowed today, up in Libertyville, where Matt works. So that sucks. The weather has been so wishy washy. I just wish this fall had been gradual and less rainy. I feel like it rained every weekend! Boo. I also noticed that now it’s cold I want to bake. Cookies, cakes, muffins… it’s all good. Which is also bad… for my figure… which is becoming more and more round.

I already voted this weekend- on Saturday. Hooray democracy.

watch out! it's politics!

Just a couple of thoughts.

You know why it’s so easy for the Obama campaign to not go completely negative- because the media simply reporting on the republican ticket is enough bad press. Palin’s spending on clothes and make-up is completely ridiculous. Though I can understand a woman getting a make over because she’ll be photographed constantly but not on the campaign budget money, and that’s just the beginning of the money misuse. In this election I would say not one republican idea is for me ,but people gave that money to the party to be used for the campaign not for this “maverick” woman to “maverickly” buy every tailored suit jacket in sight at Neiman’s. To quote SNL’s Weekend Update segement “Really?!?! with Seth and Amy”—REALLY?!?

Also both McCain and Palin pretty much completely lying about everything is easy to disprove because, well, they’re completely untrue. I mean all it takes for their claims to be cut down is a reporter to actually look into the statement. Especially when it comes to their slander against Obama… friends with Ayers? Are you out of your fucking mind. I once was in the same room as Brendan Fraiser and he talked to me (ok it was a theater and he was in a play) so does that mean that I was in the movie Encino Man? Hecks no. I’ve been in groups or committees where I questioned some member’s intelligence and integrity but that doesn’t reflect at all on who I am. But honestly I think Ayers just wanted change in this country and he was willing to do extreme things to see that change happen… albeit extremely violent things. And he got pretty carried away by surrounding himself with other militants. The actions should not be condoned by any means but the freedom to speak out against our government is something to celebrate.

In the end though, because I’m a stupid girl and I have stupid empathy, I feel bad for McCain (not Palin though, she’s just kind of like a polished turd, more like real white trash with a $150,000 wardrobe). I do think McCain used to be a different type of person. Not that I know him personally but all you have to do is watch an old interview of him and you can tell. He has gotten caught up in the GOP machine and now it’s about winning instead of holding true to who you are and what you want to do.

Which is why Obama is so appealing. He is who he always has been (seemingly, again I don’t claim to REALLY know… how can one be so certain about the character of someone without meeting them and looking them in the eye?) But it feels like Obama is genuine… refreshingly so. By now he seems a little tired but his heart is still in it. He still wants what he set out to do. Honestly I wouldn’t surprised if he started crying during his acceptance speech. I would. Just watching this circus makes me want to cry when it’s over, I just hope its tears of joy.

That sentiment also goes out to my good, great friend Emily, who I know probably HAS cried over it all. She is currently campaigning hard for democrats in Alaska, which seems a bit like an uphill battle but what do I know? I want all of Emily’s hard work to pay off. I believe her when she says they make them work 14 hours a weekday and even on weekends there is work to be done. I also believe her when she says that she sleeps barely at all and drinks 8 cups of coffee a day and still feels tired. She’s going nuts and rightfully so. She also says she constantly using the pluralis democratatis “we”. (I like making up latin) Which I think is funny. But I want this to end happily for her, for me, for all our friends and good chuck of this country. Obama '08!

Wow this turned into quite a rant. Sorry…

I wonder what my grandparents would think about all this… catholic texans and christian scientist illinoisans? heck i wonder what my parents even think about this whole debacle. I would ask but i don't want to know if i disagree with them. I still think my parents are brilliant and I want to keep it that way.

the best, the worst, the so-so

So what’s up! Two posts in two days! Say it ain’t so!

The Best:
- Buying vests for business trips to Seattle. It looks good too. I’m excited to get to go on a business trip with my dad- I just hope my skin clears up before I get there.
- I’ve been listening to a lot of Chuck Berry, The Crickets, and Hank Williams. I love them all, very much. It’s so funny how back in the early days of rock’n’roll many times you’d have a hit, then you would take the same melody and give it new words and boom there was you’re new hit. So ridiculous. But I’m just saying, I’m getting back to some roots and I love it. A little honky a little rock and I think you just defined my current taste in music. It’s a shame that some of the recordings are so low fi.
- Talking to people I love!
- Reading funny things!
- Frito pie: describe as the white trash nachos. I completely agree, but when you’re craving it, nothing’s better.
- A new sweatshirt I got that has some faux fur sort of lining, it’s so warm and fuzzy- it’s like wearing a teddy bear on the inside and the outside is bright turquoise, nothing wrong with that.
- Halloween! I don’t have any definite plans but I don’t care. I just like holidays that people perk up about. I don’t think I’ve met one person that truly HATES Halloween.

The Worst:
- Falling asleep when I don’t drink one cup of coffee in the morning!
- Getting fatter because I totally am. Ugh.
- Impulse buying the first season of pushing daisies and the fall on dvd. It’s not so much an impulse buy but a “I want that, I get that”. How childish.
- Feeling worthless

The so- so:
- Every day stuff: washing dishes, washing hair, kicking around the apartment.
- Weather’s getting colder. Which is nice but also a bummer. I love bundling up but I hate putting on socks and shoes.
- Monday- Wednesday. They’re so-so… I prefer Thursday- Sunday.
- Silence

fire on spaulding

So I was coming back from dropping Matt off at the train station to go to work and I notice that the street looks foggy or something and I park and notice that a house across the street from our apartment building is billowing smoke. I had no idea what to do. There were already 3 people out in front of the house one girl on her cell phone. The other two were banging on the door and the windows- trying to see if anybody was home. I had no idea what to do. It was scary. The girl on her cell phone had already called the fire dept and you could hear sirens in the distance which was good. The guy who went to the back of the house, which you couldn’t even see from the alley way because of smoke, said “I got her” but I wasn’t sure if he had her or if he just saw who ever lived in the house. But then the fire dept showed up and got around to the back and found the fire in the basement. I couldn’t stay there and watch though I don’t like gawking. So I went back to my apartment to call Matt. And while I was watching from my window I saw them get the old woman out on a stretcher, thank god. I just hope there wasn’t any body else in there. I couldn’t see the front of the house from my window but it sounded like they were hacking down the door and broke some windows to get in or something. I don’t know, I haven’t gone out there again to see the end result. But MAN! That was the weirdest thing to see at 7:15 in the morning.

I wish I had more to tell about what happened but I just couldn’t allow myself to stand there and watch. I feel so helpless and guilty. Is that weird? Helpless because I can’t do more and guilty because I’m not TRYING to do more. But the professionals, fire fighters, were pretty awe inspiring when they showed up. Why does someone get into that? It just blows my mind. Could I do some thing so selfless? I hope so. I don’t really yearn for a chance to prove it but I would hope that I could be more “walk” than “talk”. But at the same time, today I just froze I didn’t know what to do or how to comprehend even where to start. In my defense though it was 7:15 and I was still wearing pajamas under my jacket and jeans. Whew, it was scary.

Now I feel like anything else I write about will be silly and insignificant. So I’ll stop there.

googly googly googly go away

Terribly sorry about the delay there have been a couple of things requiring my attention and they are the following.

Working for the parents. After I did the website- which I DID finish by October 1, so in yo face. But then I didn’t have much to do at all and that was a bummer but just yesterday I got some cds with a load of photos on them of walls and I have to go through them and figure out which ones look good. Now this doesn’t sound hard but mind you it’s 4 cd’s worth of jpgs. So yeah. And! I might be going to seattle pretty soon with my father on business to snap some photos and I guess be a SCA Walls cheerleader? Whatever, sure.

Went to a Weezer concert. Awesome. The set list was pretty amazing and I wish the crowd had been a little more into it. but whatever.

Matt’s birthday was the 6 th. He got a watch! And many many happy birthday wishes. His parents came up last weekend, with his little brother. They stayed in our apartment, but I think it would have been and will be a better idea to find a hotel for them. our apartment is not very big and the one bathroom was almost always occupied. Not that I have a bladder problem but it’s just one of those things.

My good friend Sara is in Africa now. She’s there on Peace Corps time. I don’t know how much I’m going to miss her but I know I will. I liked being able to send her nonsense emails and getting a response a couple of hours. Now I don’t even know if she’ll be anywhere near a computer. But we did agree to write a book together when she gets back about her time spent there and stuff. I bet it’ll be fun. I just really like the idea of collaborating on something creative. Who knows if anything will come of it but it’s fun to think about writing for an audience. Much like blogs I suppose.

All my tv shows are on again. It’s great. I love TV except that you have to be so idle when you watch it. If I had time, space, and money I’d totally be on a treadmill when I watch tv. Oh Pushing Daisies. I love that show. More specifically I love Lee Pace. He’s so handsome. I looked up other things he’s been in. His break out roll was in a tv movie called “Soldier’s Girl” where he was playing a transgendered lady man. And I couldn’t watch it because it’s from 2003 but on youtube there is a behind the scenes of him putting on the fake boobs and make up and fingernails. And I realized the weirdest part is his eyebrows. They’re super feminine and thin. He’s really thin too. It looks interesting and maybe a little disconcerting. I did get the movie “The Fall” form the library.

The Fall is so good. Directed by Tarsem, who apparently did a ton of music videos and also directed “the cell” with henifer hlopez. But this movie is just so beautiful. And there’s a little girl in it and she’s wonderful. It’s just a good movie. I watched it once and then I watched it again with commentary. And I’ll probably watch it one more time before I return it. I think I’m going to have to buy it. Ah I want to live it. I hate this feeling though, when you like fiction so much you wish you were there. You can’t do anything but think about it. I guess I live but I can’t get it out of my head today and I’m kind of glad that it stuck.

My family vacation to Rome is coming up at the end of November. It’s going to be great but I don’t know I don’t think I’ve ever been to Europe in the fall or early winter. It’ll be interesting. My mom, dad, brother matt and me- yamma mamma.

I can’t think of anything else to say. I’ve been at the computer for WAY too long. So I’m gonna go read or something.

p.s. I notice I only update when people remind me I have this thing. So if I forget again remind me to post.

getting old

I had a dream last night and Matt told me I had been talking in my sleep. In my dream I was at my old church in Dallas, the one I grew up in and stuff. And there was a bunch of us “kids” even though we were just really like young adults and we were all lined up to go into a class for whatever and Robin Williams was the teacher or something and when he saw how many of us there were he was like really seriously mad and said something like “oh come on guys! ALL of you?” and I was like “SCREW this! If you can’t even handle this many people you fucking suck! I’m out of here…” it made me mad that a teacher would be like that- slacking from responsibility. So then I went into the sanctuary and everybody was making a big deal because Sarah Palin was going to be in the crowd…which frustrated me more because a number of rows were reserved for a complete idiot. So needless to say I bet I was mumbling in my sleep because I was so frustrated with everybody being so “ignat”.

But besides that dreams… Matt and I went to a preseason Blackhawks game against the Dallas Stars. Bummer is that no of the big players were playing for Dallas…. Waa waaaahhhh… but it was still a lot of fun. I decided I could be a Blackhawks fan.

I’ve started watching a new show on HBO “True Blood” which is about vampires and Louisiana and a blonde Anna Paquin. Vampire part= there’s a lot of sex and blood so I guess it’s okay…. Louisiana part- pretty much means that a bunch of actors, even British ones, have fake southern accents. Some sound greats others, sound pretty much like the worst thing ever. Anna Paquin= blonde, she’s alright as a lead, and she can read people’s minds. Which is cool. In the end though I feel lame for liking this show. It’s such a pander to the “vampires are the new wizards” that is the new phrase in relation to tweens (“are the new teenagers”). Man, I tell you what, I feel older every day.

Other news in my life… not much. Painted my fingernails, which I haven’t done since maybe high school. They’re a nice dark blood red of course a little perlescent, makes me feel fancy and maybe a little dangerous. Also for work I haven’t been able to wrack up any good hours because most of my job is waiting for my dad to get back to me or waiting for the copywriter to send me more pages. I guess we’ll see I think this week might be a little more work… or at least I hope it is.

I forgot to mention! I got a ticket today on my car… for the TINTING! What are you supposed to do if you buy the car used, and not only that but in a different state? So fucking stupid. I mean I don’t have the money to go get the tint removed or replaced… ugh. It really gives me the red ass. I just hope I don’t get another ticket… or I will have to nicely tell them where they can put their ticket and their tinting.

what?....... what?

It’s been a while and for this I apologize. I’ve been busier than usual… meaning I’ve been doing something! Hooray.

Well right now I’m not doing anything but sitting in front of the TV and listening to some bojo listen to music really loudly and singing along to it. Good god. I’d yell shut up out the window but I doubt they’d hear me over their bad music. Ugh. This music is not the first assault to my sense. The past two days have been celebration of Mexico’s independence and what happens in celebration? I’m not completely sure but I know a lot of car honking occurs. And my downstairs neighbors need to smoke out on the back stairway. Ew.

Other than that I flew down to Dallas for a couple of days and got assigned SCA Walls work! So I’ve been working on their new website. And they have expressed an interest in hiring me and my camera, which is more exciting.

Holy shit I can’t write anything right now. that stupid loud music and there’s a dog barking, and the tv’s going on. By the way I hear a lot of people rumbling around in this apartment during the day. I mean I’m home because “the office” happens to be in garland, tx. But what the hell are these other people doing? Not going to work for one; and two, only like to listen to stupid loud awful music.

I talked to sara and she said she read this blog and laughed out loud and then it reminded me how I hadn’t written anything in a long time, so here I am. It also made me think. Was she laughing because she’s friends with me? Or do you think a complete stranger would also read and laugh out loud?

At least I didn’t buy a stolen iPod.

earlier, now, later

I fill my cup of coffee and then add a hot cocoa mix too it. It’s the easiest way to have a sort of not really but still tastier to my child like palate mocha latte in my tiny apartment. Yum.

Oh, by the way earlier this week, Jami, Celina and I went to the Chicago Museum of Contemporary Art. It was free because it was Tuesday, which is always great. But there was the exhibit on Jeff Koons. Really interesting stuff. My favorite things were the super metallic sculptures and the inflatable pool toys that were actually made out of aluminum and integrated into other metal things (i.e. ladders, chain link, industrial chain). They were fantastic. I wanted to touch it and feel how heavy things were. He also had some wooden sculptures and some ceramic, which I think would have been more interesting if I had known the process. I feel like so much contemporary art is lost on me because without knowing how they did something, I don’t feel like I can really appreciate it. But then again that’s me. There was also a lack of text in the exhibits to me. Ya know if the artist is still alive- have them write some important things down- instead of their blurb that’s like “space is important, I tried to play with our perception of space” good lord DUH. Things that artists are constantly blurbing about: self image, space, color, social norms, beauty. When ultimately you know that it came down to this for any artist “I thought this would look cool”. Then again I didn’t stay in the fine arts, so what would I know?

Other things that have happened: I was sick for exactly one day. It was the best head cold I’ve had. I felt like shit for about 18 hours. Most of those hours I was sleeping though. There had been one pretty cold night and with a fan on me it was headed for disaster. But I’m all better, thanks.

I recently got my Chicago public library card! Hooray! So I checked out a book from an author my mom recommended- it’s a murder mystery, which I do thoroughly enjoy. Every once in a while it’s to good to read something that you feel is important, that lets you know something about yourself or others. But most of the time I just want entertainment, where people are smart and all sleuthy and bad guys get caught.

Last night was the big Obama acceptance speech at the Democratic National Convention. It was good; it was strong. Showed a “bring it on” attitude that needed to be stated. I am happy that this election means so much; that people are really getting into it or at least feel passionate enough to talk to each other about it.

Right now I’m waiting for a package from my mom with essentials things for me to continue on in the city of Chicago. I still need to get my drivers license and register my car and stuff. Man that day’s gonna suck going to where ever I have to go. But waiting for this package is a pain. The way my apartment building is laid out is hard for deliverymen. It’s all gated so unless you’re the federal United States Postal Service, there’s really no way for you to get in. So I left a note by the front gate for them to call me. I just hope they see it and that they have a cell phone. Ugh!

This weekend is a 3 day weekend!!! It’s Labor Day on Monday, which Matt and I consider our anniversary. I’m not really one to remember exact dates especially when it comes to something like “oh we have a 7 month anniversary”- ew, get over it. Keeping your anniversary with a national holiday is easy and convenient; all you have to do is count years, none of this time-consuming month/day thing. So it’ll be our 3rd year as a couple. But what lays ahead for Becca and Matt? Well “first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes baby in a baby carriage,” or so grade school had informed me. But steps in between those: get a dog, get a bigger place, buy a DeLorean and own it if only for a couple of moths.

politics- ick.

Let’s talk about politics. Just for a second. Because the democratic convention started, um yesterday, and that’s all that’s on the news.

A new poll stated the McCain and Obama were pretty much tied in ratings. Who did they poll? Are you kidding me. I don’t know how they perform these polls but I’ve got a suspicion that they might only be calling landlines. Land lines for crying out loud. How many voters are they missing out by not calling cell phones? A metric shit ton. My parents for instance, they have landlines at their loft in downtown Dallas and at their house in rural east Texas, but do they use those more than their cell phones? Hecks no. It’s just frustrating to hear the “results” of polls, and CNN to take them so seriously like they’re the gospel truth. No, CNN, you called 100 goofballs all around the country who are sitting next to their landlines during the daytime hours. Who do you think is picking up the phone?

Other thing that’s giving me the red ass, and I can’t believe this is still an issue. Democratic supporters of Hillary Clinton vow to vote for McCain in November. Um, are you on drugs? How is that going to help anything? Jon Stewart said it best when he said that McCain was getting the all important spite voters. Honestly if someone was such a die-hard Clinton fan, generally that means you’re a die-hard democrat. If that’s not how it works then I don’t know what. It just boggles my mind.
I await my voter registration stuff in the mail, and dang it, I’m gonna vote. Not that it really would make a huge difference, voting for Obama in Chicago, IL is like… blowing on a salad to cool it off. Ya know?

Anyways. New website that is currently blowing my mind, mentalfloss.com. It’s kind of amazing. It’s pretty much everything I’d ever want in a daily stop by and read sort of website. Random information that I could use sometime to tell someone about something. Perfect!

sunburned

My good friend Jami and I went to the beach on Wednesday. When in Chicago, you often forget that there are beaches. But there are and they’re delightful. Well anyways we first get there at 12 noon and look for a parking space for about 30 minutes, because, well, it’s downtown. And we were looking for free parking which is possible but you need to be a little lucky. So we ended up paying for parking but it was only 9 bucks for like 5 hours. So that’s good. Anyways we’re just sitting out in the sun, ya know, chit chatting like girls do. Which is pretty talking about how much we are awesome and everybody else is stupid. But that’s beside the point. We had sun block on… but that was not enough. We both got scorched, Jami got it worse. Hers was the worst on the back of her legs and back. I saw a picture… it was painfully just looking at it. I got mostly sunburned on the top of my legs. Which isn’t awful just really annoying.

So that explains why for the past two days I’ve been walking around in the apartment in my unders. Adding aloe vera and laying tea soaked hand towels on my legs. Pants hurt.

But anyways! It’s Friday! Hooray. And Matt just hooked up this old website that him and his high school friends put together and used pretty regularly. Sketti.net. So all night he’s been online talking to them and looking at high school shenanigans through the wonder of the internet and then laughing to himself. And then he sends me a link to show me what he’s laughing at and I don’t get it. I mean I love Matt and there are a lot of things we have in common but high school is not one of them. They’re all goons, anyway.

So… living in Chicago is still going all right. We need groceries and more money. But all in due time I guess. Right now I’m focusing on aloe vera-ing my legs and trying not to be seen by the neighbors.