late night with b. grif

It’s late and here I am. Writing about almost nothing.
From a girl inspired from years of Seinfeld.

Welp- it’s almost Christmas and I leave Wednesday for Dallas, TX. Matt and I are going together, which is always fun. I don’t know exactly what is so exciting but I guess getting to go back home. I wonder how long Dallas is going to be home? I guess always until I’m more dedicated and in love with a place. I’m not really in love Dallas, it’s not a particularly awesome city but it holds many people that I couldn’t live without. But anyways- Christmas should be delightful. I love buying presents for my family. It’s not so much that the presents are from me, they’re usually from my mom or dad TO my mom or dad but I am the one who goes to the store and buys the present with their money. It’s a delightful process that allows me to spend money. And isn’t that what is so fun about it all?

Jami was in town this last weekend and that was great. We hung out a lot which, was delightful someone else to talk to. And whilst hanging out with others, a cosmopolitan magazine was being read and something about my love/sex horoscope for the year (ra-goddamn-iculous those magazines are worthless for any real ways to improve yourself) said in passing that I dominate conversations. And of course I couldn’t help but notice how much I did actually dominate conversations. I just couldn’t help myself- I talk, a LOT. And always making jokes louder so every one can hear them so i can get the laugh. It was horrible- actually realizing that I was the funny girl. I don’t know why it was particularly unsettling but I’m better now. I calmed down my non-stop talking with some great Christmas crafting.

I made some Christmas decorations out of construction paper and glue and coffee filters. It was fun to be a child for an hour or two and making snowflakes out of coffee filters, and a paper chain. I even made little silver stars to hang from the window and lamp. It’s cute. But oh also this weekend to add to my decorations it snowed about 6 inches. So cute when it’s all fresh sparkling, bright and clean. But by now it’s already dirty and old. Oh well.

I’m watching “About Schmidt”, which I’ve only seen once before and I remember thinking it was so sad and so awful until the end. I cried a lot at the end I remember so now I’m just waiting for that redeeming perfect part. At 3:30 am. Well I took a nap today and I’m not tired. So there’s another reason why I’m here blabbing on, keyboard diarrhea.

But I’m not the sucker reading it so- ha!

list of rambles...

Man it’s been a while so let’s just get it over with.
1) my birthday was LAST Sunday and it was nice I got my presents which were “flight of the conchords” dvd’s from matt and a big nice camera from my parents. And amazing camera actually. And they even got a telephoto lens for it for me. incredible.
2) I miss having real friends. It’s so horrible- I refuse to do things that I found fun (at one point in time) but I can’t do them now because the people there are idiots or bitches or just plain boring. Actually now that I think about it they are mostly boring. They’re opinions are lame and unfounded and they are especially not funny. Boring= not funny. I do have one really great friend named matt though so thank god.
3) Serious sweet tooth lately. I can’t help it- it’s the holiday season which pretty much means that I eat way too much and feel awful about myself.
4) Fight club is such a silly movie. Known fact: Ed Norton I would have to say is somehow hotter in the movie than Brad Pitt.
5) I just watched “the Science of Sleep” and I cried. The sort of cry that hurts your throat for a little while. There’s a scene where he gets embarrassed and it just… got me. Even though he is a total mind fuck to the girl you can’t help but love him.
6) I got two funny albums and one curious album. Michael showalters “cats and sandwhiches” A +. I love showalter, he’s ridiculous and he pronounces words specifically to make them funny- what a guy! And I got the old demitri martin cd “these are jokes” equally funny. Demitri has great jokes that like your parents would enjoy and his music pieces remind me a lot of conchords. But I think that’s just because he was on the show and I like to think that they are friends and hang out and jam out with eachother. And the music cd I got was the Holloways “so this is London” interesting. Haven’t gotten a chance to listen to ALL the tracks but their single ”two left feet” makes me want to dance non-stop. They’re kind of ska I guess. But I guess I would sum it by saying they’re the opposite of lame.
7) I think I’m going to go to the hockey game tonight to support my undefeated fighting Illini. Woot.
8) Champaign- urbana is killing me. I said this to matt the other day and he agreed. I can’t wait to get out of here and I’ll shut out all these memories of how I was bored and missing people who rock and I’ll remember all the incredible nights I had.
9) What if matt and I did move to CA? that would be amazing. The bay area. California is beautiful and I bet we could have fun there. see things and ridiculous people. And I could work for my parents as a sales associate. So silly. But I think I would really love to be in the family business as it is called. It’d be so ridiculous. And I would get to talk to my dad and mom all the time and we would work together to make money. And that’s what brings me happiness- money. Hehe just kidding I meant being with my family.
10) Working at za’s is going well. Free meals and not too many hours to make me want to shoot myself. and my co-workers aren’t that bad!
11) I haven’t even started Christmas shopping! Yikes. Double yikes.