i hate my bed

here it is.. 5:30 am-ish. and i can't get to sleep. i hate this, it's been like this for a while i dont know how i got started on this horrible sleeping pattern. it just pisses me off that i can't go to sleep and then i can't go to sleep even more. so my plan is to stay awake until i feel tired then when i have to wake up at 7:30 in the morning- i'll make coffee and not go back to sleep until tomorrow night where hopefully i will have no problem falling asleep and STAYING asleep. god this sucks. so now i'm going to read more about the marx brothers in a book i got from the library and try not to think about how much i hate my brain and my body and my bed and my soft pillows. it's time for a revolution- i will be in control of myself and this sleepless business has got to stop.