a list of length

Things I’ve considered in the past two days or 20 minutes
1) I’ll never be skinny but maybe my “coolness” will make it seem like I don’t need to be skinny
2) I miss traveling for stupid reasons like concerts or because I COULD. I want that again.
3) My phone sucks balls and my brother is send me his old one so I can send my shit one to be replaced by Cingular or Samsung- both can be described as lackluster for the past month. But not the people they employ (thank you john the cell phone man) just the products and promises they make.
4) Making mix cd’s is immensely fun but quickly turns into “which of my children would I kill if I had to” because the cd only hold 1.2 hours of songs. Boo.
5) Working makes money but unless I can find a zen sort of place working also makes me very grumpy. It probably wouldn’t if I didn’t work more than 40 hours in 5 days or so on my feet- how do the full time sales associates do it?
6) Reading is fun(damental). I FINALLY finished “100 years of solitude” and was left with a burnt taste in my mouth. Burnt popcorn. Yes it is a book of human tragedy and triumph and stuff like that but I just don’t know. I guess I was expecting some glorious ending something that was nice- instead you’re left with a pig tailed baby eaten by ants. Spoiler alert? Whatever. Maybe it’s too Pulitzer for my feeble brain- I don’t mind.
7) I started and quickly need to finish (not that you asked) by steve almond. A delightful romp. I haven’t read any of his other books though. I already read most of it with the sections left about republicans and his baby to read. And I almost skipped ahead during the baseball chapter to read about the baby one. But I stuck it out because that’s who I am. A sticker outer.
8) I wait for Matt so much to be done with homework or something or other but I don’t know if it’s so much waiting for him or waiting for myself too. Hard to explain I guess. Living with boyfriend of 2 years is naturally great but also makes me immediately wish for more adult like surroundings. Although it terrifies me.
9) Even though I work in a Halloween costume store I still have no idea what I would or could possibly want to be for Halloween. And I kind of don’t care? Is that wrong? Well if I could pick a costume it’d be “I’m wearing pajamas out of the house so fuck off”
10) I have no idea how to grill a steak.
11) The sky at sunset today was beautiful I took pictures but my camera skewed the colors and they’re not right and Photoshop will fix them. But it was just gorgeous, the air was actually yellow.