late night with b. grif

It’s late and here I am. Writing about almost nothing.
From a girl inspired from years of Seinfeld.

Welp- it’s almost Christmas and I leave Wednesday for Dallas, TX. Matt and I are going together, which is always fun. I don’t know exactly what is so exciting but I guess getting to go back home. I wonder how long Dallas is going to be home? I guess always until I’m more dedicated and in love with a place. I’m not really in love Dallas, it’s not a particularly awesome city but it holds many people that I couldn’t live without. But anyways- Christmas should be delightful. I love buying presents for my family. It’s not so much that the presents are from me, they’re usually from my mom or dad TO my mom or dad but I am the one who goes to the store and buys the present with their money. It’s a delightful process that allows me to spend money. And isn’t that what is so fun about it all?

Jami was in town this last weekend and that was great. We hung out a lot which, was delightful someone else to talk to. And whilst hanging out with others, a cosmopolitan magazine was being read and something about my love/sex horoscope for the year (ra-goddamn-iculous those magazines are worthless for any real ways to improve yourself) said in passing that I dominate conversations. And of course I couldn’t help but notice how much I did actually dominate conversations. I just couldn’t help myself- I talk, a LOT. And always making jokes louder so every one can hear them so i can get the laugh. It was horrible- actually realizing that I was the funny girl. I don’t know why it was particularly unsettling but I’m better now. I calmed down my non-stop talking with some great Christmas crafting.

I made some Christmas decorations out of construction paper and glue and coffee filters. It was fun to be a child for an hour or two and making snowflakes out of coffee filters, and a paper chain. I even made little silver stars to hang from the window and lamp. It’s cute. But oh also this weekend to add to my decorations it snowed about 6 inches. So cute when it’s all fresh sparkling, bright and clean. But by now it’s already dirty and old. Oh well.

I’m watching “About Schmidt”, which I’ve only seen once before and I remember thinking it was so sad and so awful until the end. I cried a lot at the end I remember so now I’m just waiting for that redeeming perfect part. At 3:30 am. Well I took a nap today and I’m not tired. So there’s another reason why I’m here blabbing on, keyboard diarrhea.

But I’m not the sucker reading it so- ha!

list of rambles...

Man it’s been a while so let’s just get it over with.
1) my birthday was LAST Sunday and it was nice I got my presents which were “flight of the conchords” dvd’s from matt and a big nice camera from my parents. And amazing camera actually. And they even got a telephoto lens for it for me. incredible.
2) I miss having real friends. It’s so horrible- I refuse to do things that I found fun (at one point in time) but I can’t do them now because the people there are idiots or bitches or just plain boring. Actually now that I think about it they are mostly boring. They’re opinions are lame and unfounded and they are especially not funny. Boring= not funny. I do have one really great friend named matt though so thank god.
3) Serious sweet tooth lately. I can’t help it- it’s the holiday season which pretty much means that I eat way too much and feel awful about myself.
4) Fight club is such a silly movie. Known fact: Ed Norton I would have to say is somehow hotter in the movie than Brad Pitt.
5) I just watched “the Science of Sleep” and I cried. The sort of cry that hurts your throat for a little while. There’s a scene where he gets embarrassed and it just… got me. Even though he is a total mind fuck to the girl you can’t help but love him.
6) I got two funny albums and one curious album. Michael showalters “cats and sandwhiches” A +. I love showalter, he’s ridiculous and he pronounces words specifically to make them funny- what a guy! And I got the old demitri martin cd “these are jokes” equally funny. Demitri has great jokes that like your parents would enjoy and his music pieces remind me a lot of conchords. But I think that’s just because he was on the show and I like to think that they are friends and hang out and jam out with eachother. And the music cd I got was the Holloways “so this is London” interesting. Haven’t gotten a chance to listen to ALL the tracks but their single ”two left feet” makes me want to dance non-stop. They’re kind of ska I guess. But I guess I would sum it by saying they’re the opposite of lame.
7) I think I’m going to go to the hockey game tonight to support my undefeated fighting Illini. Woot.
8) Champaign- urbana is killing me. I said this to matt the other day and he agreed. I can’t wait to get out of here and I’ll shut out all these memories of how I was bored and missing people who rock and I’ll remember all the incredible nights I had.
9) What if matt and I did move to CA? that would be amazing. The bay area. California is beautiful and I bet we could have fun there. see things and ridiculous people. And I could work for my parents as a sales associate. So silly. But I think I would really love to be in the family business as it is called. It’d be so ridiculous. And I would get to talk to my dad and mom all the time and we would work together to make money. And that’s what brings me happiness- money. Hehe just kidding I meant being with my family.
10) Working at za’s is going well. Free meals and not too many hours to make me want to shoot myself. and my co-workers aren’t that bad!
11) I haven’t even started Christmas shopping! Yikes. Double yikes.

I’m watching You’ve Got Mail and this movie is good no matter what you feel like. Anyways here’s a couple of things I’ve been thinking about.
1) I’m going to start wearing my cowboy boots regardless of what my outfit is.
2) I need a new cute hoody… preferably something that is super trendy and warm
3) I’ve started parting my hair on the other side of my head and it’s a weird sensation not knowing which way to brush your hair out of your face. Also I'm going to color it dark dark brown when friends are in town to do it for me.
4) I love tom hanks. Movies that are never to be passed (included already mentioned you’ve got mail) Big, That Thing You Do, Gump, Toy Story, Joe Vs. the Volcano, every episode that he was interviewed on Conan O’brian… and many others.

In other news…
Work is going well. I do come home smelling of garlic and onions but it’s free food and a paycheck. Oh my god and guess what!
My birthday is this Sunday!!! I’ll be 23. I already got a birthday check from my aunt, which was very much appreciated. And my mom said a birthday package is coming on Friday!! How exciting. And Matt is taking me to a fancy pants restaurant on Sunday. Anyways.

My brother said he was going to get a dog… I hope he does.

pictures!

what i did during my fall vacation

I’m back in IL. After being in a very relaxing very family Texas. Let me tell you what I did in TX.

Went to dinner with Stef!!! My dearest oldest friend- we had Mexican food and it was great. We had a good conversation and topped it off with some delicious desserts sopapillas. And I didn’t really realize how long we had been friends until later that night I stayed up til 2 am looking at old family photos… I was mainly looking for a baby photo to add to matt’s baby picture we have in our apartment already.

Plus I found great pictures of my parents being young and dating and it made me so happy. Also made me realize my parents have this whole other life that existed before I was born. They once were stupid teenagers and did things before I was even a thought in their head. But I took one picture of my parents in college at a 50’s party, both with cigars in their mouths. When I told my parents I took said picture, my dad immediately went into a story of how a good friend was so drunk and passed out or something and how they also were totally sloshed and had to talk to a police officer to save the passed out friend. And they drove home drunk. Honestly! My parents were/are such bad influences. But I love them all the same.

Then I went to the lake house with my parents and we started our holiday of making and eating food and watching movies. My brother and uncle and cousin showed up later and that was our Thanksgiving. I also realized I drank more wine and beer than water. Also we burned a big pile of yard trash. Like tree stumps and leaves and such. Fires are so amazing.

So yep. Then I flew back up to St. Louis and had a big lunch with Matt's parents, sister, brother, grandparents, and uncles. So THAT was slightly exhausting. But I made it back to Urbana, IL.
It’s nice to be back but I had such a great time. *sigh*

Beautiful wonderful Thanksgiving

Here in the United States of America, we have a holiday called thanksgiving. This holiday is based on eating. Eating. Isn’t that funny? But it’s the best kind of food. Savory and sweet and different textures than usual everyday food. Like stuffing, it’s kind of like bread but it’s kind of like mush but it’s delicious. And cranberry sauce isn’t sauce at all… it’s like a weird 2nd cousin of Jello. Then there’s the turkey, which I don’t know about you but I rarely get to see a whole turkey- it’s usually already processed and sliced for my convenience. And the yams, oh the yams! They’ve managed to take a fairly vitamin enriched vegetable and do what to it? Smother it in butter, brown sugar and cinnamon and top it off with marshmallows. It’s genius. And then there are pies. Enough said. So I wish you a happy Thanksgiving on this up coming Thursday. I will be enjoying it from a lake house in Mineola, Texas with my parents and brother, and maybe other family members I’m not sure.

Anyways other than being excited for the holiday… This weekend was/is still going great… I’ve done very little and feel very comfortable about that. Oh wait, matt and I did go to the Jimmy Eat World concert on Friday night. Matt working at the radio station was around when someone said something like “hey we couldn’t give these tickets away fro the show do you want them” and so he took them. And we went, but very much avoided the opening bands. But JEW was pretty good. Played the goodies from Bleed American. Matt had bought a bucket of popcorn too, what a goofball.

Also this weekend we rented Ratatouille, which was alright… I really liked the incredibles or finding nemo a lot more. Oh well.

Also! Matt got a call from Palm, the company who makes Palm Pilots. Well they were very interested in his resume. Isn’t that cool? Also they’re offices are in bay area of CA. Bad Ass.

Also Matt and I played Mario Kart 64 last night and we both got mad at how awful we were doing at banshee boardwalk- damn you ghosts!!!!

keep dancing goofball...

i love you tom hanks. i love you steve zahn. i love you captain geech and the shrimp shack shooters. what movie am i watching? teehee.

did not a lot today. deposited some checks. enjoyed my jeans and some orange juice. had a pumpkin spice latte. also declined a visit to the grocery store because there were too many cars in the parking lot.

i start work on thursday! woot.

i'm at a complete loss. on facebook there is a spot to put your favorite quotes. now i am a lover of quotes. so trying to figure out what to put down is impossible. if i could group my favorite TYPE of quotes it would go like this: 1) any conversation with friends 2) any jokes repeated at nausium from the following movies or tv show "stella" "flight of the conchords" "wet hot american summer" "aladdin" "hook" "south park" "yo gabba gabba" "simpsons" 3) or just funny in general. and in conclusion:

"there was this one time where we stayed up way past midnight."

Guess who’s slightly more employed than usual!

Me! I took the job at the Italian eatery. And gadzooks abound. I will be working with two people that I know already. Woot. I’m excited for having something to do and a paycheck and free food. Pretty groovy. And I get work shirts which is great so I don’t have to gunk up my own t-shirts.

In other news, talked to Emily and Casey via internets today. I miss those goon-butts.

I’ve been looking at clothes to buy today which can’t be good. I’ve decided I need more underwear and some leggings. Otherwise everything else is blah looking to me.

My birthday is in a while but my mom already asked me if there was something I wanted I couldn’t think of one thing. That’s how I know I’m getting old.

I just remembered that batman (the animated series) episode were everyone in arkham asylum puts batman on trial for making them what they are and in the end they realize that it’s them that made him. Such an awesome episode.

Today was real rainy and awful. Reminds me: gift idea for my birthday- new windshield wipers. Ok that’s all.

parents in town=eating a lot of food

Well it’s been a week exactly so where to start?

During the week I made this amazing pumpkin bread. Like really good. Its really good toasted and then with just a spoonful of ice cream. Oh my goodness. I made muffins of it too because I had so much batter. Needless to day it was gobbled up.

I cleaned the apartment pretty well because my parents were coming and I want them to know that I don’t live in a COMPLETE pig sty only a partial sty that has lovely fall flowers and smells of lavender. Also I bought an African violet to brighten up the kitchen.

If you haven’t noticed by now I have become a housewife.

So in revolt against this slow transformation I checked job listing and saw that an Italian eatery needed some lunchtime help. And I know I wanted to stay away from food service but I’m desperate and at least I kind of already know what I’m doing. And I have an interview there on Monday, which is tomorrow. So that’s good.

My parents came into town on Friday night. I was so stoked. We went first to this place that I knew had great thin crust pizza and that’s my mom’s favorite so we went there. And then we rented two movies- Transformers and Spiderman 3. I know ridiculous choices but at the same time kind of didn’t want to have to think. And we got some booze too. Not too shabby when hanging out with the Grifs. So that night we just watched transformer and drank beer and champagne and cider. Then the next day was our two-meal day because the meals were huge. For brunch we went to Flat Top where we made our own pancakes and omelets and French toast. My parents liked it. THEN! We went shopping around I guess… to target for whatever and my dad wanted a U of I button up shirt. So yeah and then we started watching the U of I vs. Ohio football game. And oh my god we won. Amazing. Ohio was ranked number 1. And we weren’t even in the top 20 teams. Students started gathering at the alma mater being buzzed from the game and also from the beers we had all consumed. It was fun. My parents, Matt, and I had gone to a bar to watch the game too. Then we wasted some time before going to the hockey game where we won again. It was just a sport filled night. And afterwards we went to Papa Del’s. Incredible deep-dish pizza was consumed by all. Ryan and Jeff were there too! Good times.

My parents left this morning- boooo! But hey I get to go down to Texas in like a week for Thanksgiving. I’m also excited about that because I get to see Stef and my brother! Yay.

I need to throw away my pumpkin because it’s starting to grow mold.
Also I’ve decided putting lotion on your feet really stops squeaky shoe syndrome- that is, of course, if you’re not wearing socks.
Curb your Enthusiasm finale tonight- bittersweet. Because it’s over but I can cancel HBO which costs $$$$$.

how do you punch somebody in the water? well it just happened

I’m watching bad tv and it’s Sunday morning. That’s all you really need to know.

I feel hungry- although last night I ate enough for like 5 people after drinking enough beers for 2. As you can tell my night last night can be summed up with an equation.

Becca + 10 beers (from 8 pm to about 2 am so don’t think I’m a total lush- just sounds like it on paper) = eating lots of Doritos brand chips

Matt and I went to some party that for some odd reason had a lot of the people that I didn’t really want to see again since graduating. But it was nice to see some of matt’s friends, they’re pretty funny.

Sometimes when I say someone is funny, I actually mean that they laugh at my jokes.

Man this movie is dumb “Into the Blue”- beautiful people getting mixed up in treasure and cocaine. Paul Walker could be the silliest man alive. I mean why even try to do a movie after you’ve done the fast and the furious. Did I mention there was a shark attack in this movie and Jessica Alba just fucking macheted off her dead friend’s arm so she could walk around or something. This is such a great bad movie.

Last night though we watched a Who documentary on Vh1 that was pretty good. I can honestly say the Who were mostly fucking nuts and mainly amazing. I really want a red shirt with just Keith on the breast pocket.

it's over-ween.

So here I am, it’s been a while. I finished my stint at the costume shop yesterday and it was nice to know that I wouldn’t have to go in but it was a bummer to know that a job was over. Although I have 2 paychecks still to come! Anyways!

I can’t think of anything really to write about. Yesterday was Halloween and I had to work, which was a bummer, but even during the party weekend that precedes Halloween I didn’t dress up. I knew I wouldn’t. I don’t care near enough o spend that sort of money on a one day/occasion sort of thing. But I did buy some new clothes, which I’m totally stoked about. Some skinny jeans and a mini skirt- literally miniscule. I got it knowing that I would only wear it with leggings underneath it. And the jeans are the type that everybody wears now a days. And my butt looks good in both.

Last night my mom and I set some dates for my trip down to Texas for Thanksgiving! And plane tickets were bought. Yay! I’m stoked. It’s always fun to go home and see people that you haven’t in a while. And after all if it’s thanksgiving that means that my birthday isn’t far off. I don’t expect anything grand but maybe some sweet little some things. Hopefully someone remembers.

I had the strangest dream today during a wee little nap I took. In my dream I got a couple of tattoos that were just AWFUL. Like a giant cross on my back and like a bird on my calf. I don’t know just really weird and meaningless tattoos. Oh in my dream I woke up and checked to see if they were real in a mirror and I was so pissed I’d get something so stupid. And then in my dream I was like no way this is a dream I’m going to wake up. And then I woke up in a real life and was totally relieved. It was such a relief I fell back asleep. And I also dreamed I was wearing the most ridiculous clothes. I don’t know what was going on but this dream was about bizarro Becca- with her bad clothes and tattoos. Ew.

I’m glad I have nothing to do this weekend because I plan on going out and doing stuff that cool kids do.

a list of length

Things I’ve considered in the past two days or 20 minutes
1) I’ll never be skinny but maybe my “coolness” will make it seem like I don’t need to be skinny
2) I miss traveling for stupid reasons like concerts or because I COULD. I want that again.
3) My phone sucks balls and my brother is send me his old one so I can send my shit one to be replaced by Cingular or Samsung- both can be described as lackluster for the past month. But not the people they employ (thank you john the cell phone man) just the products and promises they make.
4) Making mix cd’s is immensely fun but quickly turns into “which of my children would I kill if I had to” because the cd only hold 1.2 hours of songs. Boo.
5) Working makes money but unless I can find a zen sort of place working also makes me very grumpy. It probably wouldn’t if I didn’t work more than 40 hours in 5 days or so on my feet- how do the full time sales associates do it?
6) Reading is fun(damental). I FINALLY finished “100 years of solitude” and was left with a burnt taste in my mouth. Burnt popcorn. Yes it is a book of human tragedy and triumph and stuff like that but I just don’t know. I guess I was expecting some glorious ending something that was nice- instead you’re left with a pig tailed baby eaten by ants. Spoiler alert? Whatever. Maybe it’s too Pulitzer for my feeble brain- I don’t mind.
7) I started and quickly need to finish (not that you asked) by steve almond. A delightful romp. I haven’t read any of his other books though. I already read most of it with the sections left about republicans and his baby to read. And I almost skipped ahead during the baseball chapter to read about the baby one. But I stuck it out because that’s who I am. A sticker outer.
8) I wait for Matt so much to be done with homework or something or other but I don’t know if it’s so much waiting for him or waiting for myself too. Hard to explain I guess. Living with boyfriend of 2 years is naturally great but also makes me immediately wish for more adult like surroundings. Although it terrifies me.
9) Even though I work in a Halloween costume store I still have no idea what I would or could possibly want to be for Halloween. And I kind of don’t care? Is that wrong? Well if I could pick a costume it’d be “I’m wearing pajamas out of the house so fuck off”
10) I have no idea how to grill a steak.
11) The sky at sunset today was beautiful I took pictures but my camera skewed the colors and they’re not right and Photoshop will fix them. But it was just gorgeous, the air was actually yellow.

a much needed day off

God diesel brand fragrance can suck it. Their commercial are awful. Ruggedly hansom men tell me whether or not I’m living- always with their shirts undone. Who cares? No I don’t drink the rain or run out of an old mansion without a shirt on. Idiot.

So new news! I started working at Dallas & Co. for the Halloween season. I started last week and it’s been nuts ever since. I told them I could work full time, which to them means close to 10 hours every day. So while I love helping sorority girls find slutty costume- it’s exhausting work. But it is cute to help someone find exactly what they wanted for a costume. They get so excited. My first couple of days were rough- not the work but afterwards. My feet hurt so bad- it’s been a long time since I’ve had to be on my feet for longer than like 4 hours at one time. And not just my feet are aching my whole body was revolting a couple of days ago. I came home from work (which is around 9 because that’s when we close) and I all of a sudden felt really chilled like I had a fever ya know? Where your hands and feet feel cold but your hot everywhere else and you just feel weird and wrong. Well yeah that’s how I felt and then I started being hot all over and sweating like I had broke the fever. But I had no other symptoms. But it all made me feel like poop. And it just sucks that it happened on a Saturday when I was all ready to do something. I think it has something to do with eating pretty healthily and regularly o eating rarely and very poorly. But we went to the grocery store last night and got some food that just might be good for me. I also think maybe part of it is having to handle people’s money with all their germs on them. So I’ve been taking more vitamin C than god and also a multivitamin.

And today is my first day off and I have another one tomorrow too. Exciting. So today I’m taking it real easy. I haven’t changed out of my comfortable pajama type clothes and I really don’t plan to unless I decide to walk to the library. That reminds me I have a lot of reading to do because some books are due in like 3 days and I can’t renew them! Also I requested some pretty silly things so I need to go pick those up too.

That’s all for now.

friend dates

Aww. This commercial makes me excited for the Festivus festivities.


But at the same time I’ve been on two friend dates in the last 4 days. Jeff and I went to a movie and before hand some good ol’ stake and shake. And then went to dinner with Dan. Such goodness. I like the people that I hang out with.
Also talked to Sara for a long time on the phone on Monday (I think). And she said that she told Jami that I’m a good phone talker and I was so flattered. That’s such a compliment. To me.
Aw friends. We got the funk (and backpacks that are half the size of our whole body).

the mornings are mine.

So I’ve had to wake up a lot earlier for work than I think I ever had to for school. Which is fine except that I go to bed at like 2 am and then I crash at like 4 pm. So today is coffee. Lots of coffee. I refuse to fall asleep today! Also because of work my weekends don’t exist. I have more work in one Saturday than I do in probably all my weekdays. Anyways.

My cell phone has been seriously fucking up. It will turn off in the middle of nothing and it wont complete calls or it will drop calls even though I have full bars. Needless today it’s total shit and I can’t wait to get a new one. I think I might even mail it to the parents to get me a new one. But that means I’d be phone less for at least 3 days at a minimum. Which I don know if I can handle.

So again I’m watching mtv- boooo! But it’s Made which is probably the only quasi-quality show they make. And this one is about a whole family getting in shape. And one quote said during this episode is “Pain is weakness leaving the body”. WHAT? That’s so not true- pain is weakness in the body crying out and telling you to stop it. Everybody cries on mtv shows too. That’s one thing I’ve noticed- that and the incredible level of crap that is involved in making the shows.

I went to Curtis Orchards a while ago- it was great! I bought a pumpkin and a bag of apples- gold delicious. Yum. I also bought some caramel cups so to dip the apples into. Hehe. And the pumpkin will not be carved but will be decoratively set on the porch or front of the house… it was odd going to the place by myself but hen again I don’t have very many friends left to go to an orchard at 9 am.

In other news: I need to get my oil changed although it’ll cost me like 50 bucks- fuck you mini cooper and all your high performance-ness. I’m going to start taking care of my teeth better. It’s cold finally and I have to wear socks now. Socks! I’m reading “100 years of solitude” and I can’t wait to start “(not that you asked)”. New TV show “Pushing Daisies” makes me happy. So there you go.

Is this something you can share with the rest of us, Amazing Larry?

So I thought I’d attempt to write an entry even though I’m exhausted and sunburn.
So yeah defiantly am having a f-ed up sleeping cycle but I can’t help it if I wake up at 6:30 am and then want to nap when I get home. And it also doesn’t help that roommate/bf also keeps ungodly hours with working on engineering stuff until 5 am.

So yesterday was Ryan birthday. Woot. Go Ryan, 23 is I imagine unimpressive and lame. But for his birthday we did go bowling which was great to play in real life instead of with a Wii. And I had made Ryan a big chocolate chip cookie that said “Happy Birthday Ryan, you’re 23! So here’s a giant cookie.” I hope it’s not too crunchy, I had to bake it long enough so it wouldn’t break as soon as I tried to get it off the pan. I like birthdays a lot, I wish more people made a big deal about them. It’s the ultimate personal holiday. But I understand that it’s hard to fund a big great birthday- but usually anything/ something is better than nothing on your birthday (or at least for MY birthday it is- or else you'll hear about it).

And so today is (soon to be was) Matt’s birthday! His parents came down which is always an experience. We went to the Illini Football game- amazing game. We beat Wisconsin who is ranked #5 in the country. So in short- Ron Zook is a Zeus and the players are deities of the pigskin. It was a lot of fun although it was hotter than ball sacks. And we got sunburn, but only on one side of our faces. It was so exciting and it’s dad’s weekend here at U of I so there were dads everywhere and the marching band spelled out dad and the cheerleaders' dads were dancing during half time too. It was just dad-cute all over. I called my dad at halftime to tell him to watch because he gets so excited over football and that was the extent of my celebration for dad's weekend.
But I digress, Matt’s birthday gifts from me included 1) a new watch! More grown up than his little digital one he’s had for probably 10 years. 2) cookies! I made matt some chocolate chip and pecan cookies (really for him and his parents to have during their visit). His parents brought lots of stuff for both of us- a new gas grill to cook on- which is awesome and makes me wish it was the beginning of the summer. They brought some kugel- a type of noodley Jew food. I don’t know what was in it but it ain’t bad! They brought a lot more food. I love it when parents visit and they bring or buy you paper napkins and like plastic silverware, as if we are constantly picnicking or hosting barbeque parties. His parents are the ones who got us the football tickets and they also went to the hockey game (I stayed home and took a much wanted nap instead of going to the hockey game because I know that the team we were playing were not very good therefore making the game less interesting). Other than that we’ve been sitting around our apartment and watching even more sports on tv (I don’t know how men do it- watch various sports all day, “It's like you're unraveling a big cable-knit sweater that someone keeps knitting and knitting and knitting and knitting and knitting and knitting...”)

And now I just spent 10 minutes reading all the Pee wee’s Big Adventure movie quotes. I love that movie I want it on dvd, even though it’s on tv every other day. Oh I bought jungle book on dvd- it’s maybe my second favorite Disney movie...maybe.

Oh I also dyed my hair dark brown, its real dark; darker than I thought it’d be but I like it. I would just be nice if the weather was cold so I could wear it down for a change and show it off.

Tomorrow is going to be a long one. Lots and lots of pet sitting jobs which is fine because all the pets are nice and sweet and a delight. Just waking up at 6:30 am is no delight.

i hate my bed

here it is.. 5:30 am-ish. and i can't get to sleep. i hate this, it's been like this for a while i dont know how i got started on this horrible sleeping pattern. it just pisses me off that i can't go to sleep and then i can't go to sleep even more. so my plan is to stay awake until i feel tired then when i have to wake up at 7:30 in the morning- i'll make coffee and not go back to sleep until tomorrow night where hopefully i will have no problem falling asleep and STAYING asleep. god this sucks. so now i'm going to read more about the marx brothers in a book i got from the library and try not to think about how much i hate my brain and my body and my bed and my soft pillows. it's time for a revolution- i will be in control of myself and this sleepless business has got to stop.

this is how we do it! a-break it down.

A pretty fun weekend was just had by me and hopefully others. Considering it is Sunday and that means that all fun is officially over.

Thursday was hell in the pet sitting side because I had like seven jobs and they were all in different locations. And this one dog kept peeing in his crate and therefore in the house which I had to clean up. ANYWAYS- it sucked. But Thursday night night was spent at Murphy’s with Jeff and Ryan and even Alex danger. It was a sheer delight to sit with, which I shall now affectionately call “ma boys”. Oh and there was the Star Course Bar Crawl which is always jam packed full of people I know and love and who were drunk beyond belief. Eileen and Alan fell on top of Ryan. And Colin definitely grabbed me from behind and jiggled me- not appreciated. It was a lot of fun that night at Murphy’s.

Then on Friday I applied to work at Dallas and Co. a costume shoppe. Hopefully they’ll hire me even if it is just part time. I need something to do and why not help dudes and bros with their Halloween costumes? But Friday night was a delight because I got to play Wii with friends. And I played the BEST Wii bowling game of my life. I beat even Marty, who is the owner of the Wii consol. It was amazing. 242. No joke. Oh I loves me some Wii.

Saturday, yesterday, was pretty uneventful until I got to go to the hockey game for FREE because the radio station that matt works for is broadcasting some of the hockey home games. So I said I was also from the station and got in. It was an incredible game. We tied with in the last 20 seconds, then it went into overtime and we won! It was just amazing. Really makes me want to go to more of them. anyways, while at the hockey game I brought a long a little journal and took notes of stupid things that were happening around me, plus mainly I thought it would look like I’m actually doing something to warrant that I’m from the radio station. So I will share with you now the things I noted.
1. The game actually opened up with “let’s get ready to rumble” Jock Jams style. I thought it was hilarious because where else would you hear such an archaic pump up song. I guess classics never die.
2. This older lady was finding her seat- first off it’s just benches, it’s really just like sitting on bleachers I mean who cares if you’re in the front row or the second to front row. She was just being loud, obnoxious and fat.
3. Why would bring a baby to a hockey game? Like a baby baby. Not only that, but sit in the front row with a baby- are you going to use it as a shield if the puck comes at you?
4. And does a Zamboni really need headlights?

That’s all. And then last night after the game we went to a bar again, but this time with Brooke and Jesse, which was a nice change of pace. And this real big titty girl was all over Jesse, so funny and so inappropriate.

So that’s it. Next weekend Matt and I are going to the football game with his parents and Saturday is his birthday- EEP. Need to get him something, but what? Hmmm.

oh flub.

I feel worthless and I hate it. I’ve tried getting a job to many places but I don’t know what’s keeping them from even calling me back. I’m planning on applying to work at Dallas & co., a costume and party store. And if that’s not weird enough I’ll also apply to be a receptionist for corporate Jimmy Johns. And if that’s not stupid enough then I’ll apply to work at Ducky’s bridal shop. I need something- ANYTHING. Ugh.

Other than being a reject of the corporate and sales world, I’m doing alright. I went to the library yesterday and got 4 whole books. One on the Marx brothers, ya know Groucho, Harpo and such. I got it because the other day I saw most of the movie “A Night at the Opera” and it made me curious. Who are these men? What were they like off the stage and screen? Were they nice guys? Vaudeville is an interesting time to me. Other books are just fiction that look interesting. I’ll let you know once I read them what they were and how much I hated/loved them.

I can’t even really think of other things to mention, because my head is so swamped with job stuff. So aggravating.

Also aggravating is the problems with my apartment. All the work they’ve put into the electrical and installing whatever they need to in order to be up to code has meant that I have had to tailor my morning routine so they don’t catch me doing pilates or showering or taking a nap. I have a feeling that they think that we both sleep until 3 pm, which is scientifically impossible. Everyone knows that.

In conclusion, I wish I were somewhere else, with a job, and a landlord-free apartment.

we do the tighten up now...

Tighten up that bass… now make it mellow…
Oh Archie Bell and Drells I will forever be in their debt for creating such a beautiful song that essentially is about nothing.

This was a pretty successful weekend, got to see some people I haven’t seen in a while. We played some softball on Saturday, which was fun. I even got a little sun on my forehead. I also didn’t do too badly with hitting- I was like “I’m gonna try to hit it up in the air” and then I did. So booya-ca-sha. And Saturday ended with everybody at my place, which made me realize how much smaller my apartment, is than the giant monster house that we used to live in. Oh the times of being able to have 10 people over and everybody had seats. But anyways, great to see people, and some people I see too much, you know who you are! Haha.

Also Saturday night we were listening to music while watching Mad Max and the Thunderdome on mute. It was quite funny. Who would know that the soundtrack to Newsies would work so well with the fight sequence? We also watched some Flight of the Conchords, and my love of them is getting out of control. It’s turning into that sort of suffocating love that I once had for Stella. Don’t get me wrong I look fondly on those weeks where every conversation involved a quote from the hilariously cancelled Comedy Central show. But looking back I realize how sick it was and how quoting DVD commentary can’t be healthy. I don’t know if I’ve learned my lesson. “If that’s what you’re into...”

More things that I’m just thinking about:
Getting a FUCKING job (FUCK)
Visiting Emily in Maine!!! It would be amazing, you know it, I know it.
Matt’s birthday is Oct. 6th and we are going to the football game that weekend too, his mom bought us matching Chief sweatshirts- too funny so of course I’m taking mine and wearing it, because frankly why the hell not? They’re matching for crying out loud.

I can’t wait for it to be cold fall weather- yum.

yay friends!!!

This weekend I have friends! Jami and Casey are going to be here. Thank god. Jami got here yesterday and we went to Murphey’s, the only respectable bar on Green St. Even though we are frequent customers at this bar, I felt like totally out of place. Firstly I graduated so I’m automatically older than 90% of the people there. And we were all wearing jeans and a t-shirt sort of deal and again that made us different than 90% of the people there. It was just a really weird feeling. Being old and not impressive.

But this weirdness did not stop Jami and I from splitting two pitchers of Leinenkugel’s sunset wheat. We took the bus home and drunk kids are funny, and sad. Anyways we came home to eat too many chips and promptly fell asleep.

This morning Jami and I went running! Yay exercise. It was hard; it was hot. But glad we went, after the two pitchers last night.

I’m excited for nothing in particular.

Also I bought a lot of groceries yesterday.

I also saw a hilarious show last night with Dan the man Bennett. It was like a comedy performance about race. It was very funny, and I’m glad I got to go. It was called N*gger W*etback Ch*nk…. Very racy/controversial. But hilarious.

Already I’ve done more this weekend than I have in the past week.

the destruction of my bathroom and life

So today started probably the most annoying way possible. Firstly Matt got back to the apartment at 6 am! SIX AM! He pulled an all-nighter working on engineering homework… needless to say I’m very proud of him. Then at about 9 am my landlord and his other maintenance guy came in. It’s not about 15 past 2 PM and they’re still here. Still working on the same thing as yesterday- an exhaust fan. And I didn’t wake up at 9 am when they got here because frankly there’s nothing to do when the electricity is out. Besides I was still tired for trying to wait up for matt and then actually being woken up by matt. Anyways, I was awake approximately from 9 to 12. And during this time I was piecing together the story of what was happened only through the noises and voices I heard through the door. The inspector that came in had an interesting voice and I tried to imagine his face and height- short, round, kind of pinchy. So yes, the electricity was out which meant that my white noise maker was off which meant I heard everything inside and outside my apartment/house (we have the bottom floor to a small house- hence an apartment). At any rate- they are still here. And I am still in my pajamas sort of. They are running and doing all this work and I’m sitting on my butt, writing in a stupid blog. But I don’t feel super bad for doing nothing because when they leave I’m gonna have to clean the bathroom and the kitchen because even though they’ll try they wont do it well enough.

Other than that, I’m doing nothing. I ran for about 2 miles yesterday and thought I was going to die. It was hotter than hell. It was hottest day in a while; the high was 90 f. Today I want to do Pilates but I refuse to do it while strange men are around and also they're walking right through my "exercise mat" (the floor) all the time.

Matt said he was going to start a blog called “totally defined”- but I sincerely doubt it.

I need a job.

a lawn mower, a electrician and my bladder

So today I slept way too late and I’m going to run to make it all better and hopefully do some pilates too later. And of course I tell myself not to over eat today but we’ll see how that goes. ANYWAYS!

I wake up to the sound of my landlord (who is a electrician as well!) coming in my apartment (I knew he was coming) to install an exhaust fan in the bathroom. Not quite sure why we needed a fan there wasn’t one before but maybe I’ll ask in a little bit, he’s still here. He’s currently outside talking to a lawn mower guy, who sounds like that type of guy who’s lost many teeth and would say New Orleans like “NAW-lens”. My landlord just said his name is Jim and that he is “chatty” today. Interesting. But back to my point, they’re working in bathroom and I didn’t realize that that means I can’t go to the bathroom so I’m kind of ruined here… trying not to think how I haven’t peed since like 2 am last night. And it’s now almost 2 pm. Damn.

the song!

the song playing on the tv show was regina spektor "fidelity"
and i decided that the song i want to play while i walk out if i ever am a guest on conan obrien is aquabats' "super rad!".

first amazing post

After being silent for OH so many years I've decided to start another online journal thing. And you might ask yourself "Why start again? Surely everything that needs to be said has been said.” I will tell you what brought me crashing in social commentary.

I was watching MTV for one 30-minute show. The life of Ryan- a show that is about a 17-year-old skate boarder. What cracked me up is that in the show he starts being interested in his good friend’s ex-hook up. First off there are so many things with this show’s description already… but I digress. Whilst all these California youngsters hang out in a pool one longingly looks at the other while a perfectly delicate indie song (by some delightful girl with leggings and big jewelry and either too asymmetrical or too symmetrical hair) emotionally plays in the background. I’ll find out what song. This clash of two very different music genres literally made me laugh out loud. Oh MTV. It just cracks me up. The songs could be one of two things- 1) it was put there to maybe expand the minds of those who are watching that maybe there’s more to music than big labels and the radio which for a long time has had it’s play lists planned by money. 2) it was a mistake, and someone just heard a sweet song and thought “Oh this scene has emotions let’s play this.”

Now let me explain my choice of names and address. “I just don’t know anymore” is how I feel right now about most everything. “Life after college” is only three words but it’s looking more and more like a four letter word. And the “lack of definition” is representative of my body and my thoughts and most of tastes. It was available too! So lucky me. So here we are again, talking to no one and yet every one. I’m sure I’ll be making plenty of pointless entries but oh well.